Why Wonder Why?

Why I wonder, do I worry? Is it a lack of faith? Has God failed me yet? I suffer from a chronic pain condition and am on three medications for this condition. Two of these are to be taken four times a day as needed. Fortunately, I don’t require meds during the night (when I am sleeping) so I am able to restrict myself to the dosing instructions; however, some days I must take these every three hours to adequately control the pain, meaning some days I take five instead of four, which means, should I do this several times during the month, I run the risk of running out. Running out would mean a miserable time for me until I could refill my meds.

Such was the case last month. Due to some rough days, I was seriously short at month end. Naturally, I began to worry. What would happen? How bad would it be? The shortage was sure to be a day, possibly two. I was very concerned, aka scared to death. My refill was due Monday, January 18th. I noticed around the 14th or 15th that I was in short supply. This filled me with trepidation, to say the least. On the 15th of the month, four days prior to the refill the Lord reminded me that we’ve been in this place before and He has never failed me yet.

To that end on this particular Friday, I used only one of these pills. On Saturday the 16th I used two, and Sunday the 17th only three. Not once during this period was I ever in pain that I was not able to relieve. Bottom line? Supernatural sustainment. Like the Israelites who wandered in the desert for 40 years. Their clothes and shoes did not wear out; the Lord fed them every single day with manna from heaven and water from a rock. He even brought quail in response to their whining about meat, or the lack thereof.

The many times that I have read this story and others like it, I shake my head at the lack of faith displayed as God’s supernatural provision and protection has gone both before and after. How about the story of Corrie Ten Boom in the concentration camp? All she had was one tiny bottle of vitamin drops for the prisoners to ward off deadly disease. No matter how many times she administered a drop to each, the bottle never ran dry. As Solomon said, there’s nothing new under the sun. Like the loaves and the fishes with which God fed the multitude so completely that even after everyone had eaten their fill, fish and bread still remained to be collected.

I often say that the Bible is for us, all of the stories preserved to teach us lessons about the Lord. I believe what the Bible says, that not one jot or tittle of God’s word has passed away, nor will before the appointed time (Matthew 5:18). At these times of extreme need He has taken me from needing four to five pain meds per day to just one or two to so I can get by. Why doesn’t he heal me instead? I don’t know; only He knows, and that is good enough for me. He makes the impossible possible. And lest we be surprised that he still provides for us remember that He is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine. Ephesians 3:20

How many times will it take to teach me that I need not fear? I suppose that we are still indeed a stiff-necked people.

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I'm a bookkeeper, a writer of lyrics and devotional articles and a passionate lover of Jesus Christ. I am married (20 years) with 2 daughters and live in Louisa County VA, which is between Charlottesville and Richmond.

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